I wish I could write an open letter to the father of my child to tell him that never will I go to future family events of his family. Maybe I can, when he dies.. Oh my gosh, that sounded evil.
I heard from him that his grandmother died. Well, actually, he called me (while crying) that the doctors are trying to pump his grandmother (everyone calls her Nanay) to no avail. Her heart had stopped. And that he just wanted me to know.
Nanay was the only person in his family that I can talk to with ease. I am myself when I'm with her, unlike anyone from his family, I am stiff; I don't really get why. So, of course, I wanted to pay my last respects to her; afterall, death is so final.
So together my son, and my son's nanny, we went to the wake. I let his relatives carry my son, take pictures of him, play with him, etc.. My ex's mother gave us food, but me and my nanny didn't eat them because we just ate dinner. I felt it was kind of rude, but who cares? Then, I noticed my name was not included on the list of the children and grandchildren as if I already died, huh? Good job.
Lesson learned: Never go to any of their family affairs ever again.
I cried just a few moments ago. I hate the situation that I am in. I hate him for bringing me into this awkward relationship that I don't deserve.
I heard from him that his grandmother died. Well, actually, he called me (while crying) that the doctors are trying to pump his grandmother (everyone calls her Nanay) to no avail. Her heart had stopped. And that he just wanted me to know.
Nanay was the only person in his family that I can talk to with ease. I am myself when I'm with her, unlike anyone from his family, I am stiff; I don't really get why. So, of course, I wanted to pay my last respects to her; afterall, death is so final.
So together my son, and my son's nanny, we went to the wake. I let his relatives carry my son, take pictures of him, play with him, etc.. My ex's mother gave us food, but me and my nanny didn't eat them because we just ate dinner. I felt it was kind of rude, but who cares? Then, I noticed my name was not included on the list of the children and grandchildren as if I already died, huh? Good job.
Lesson learned: Never go to any of their family affairs ever again.
I cried just a few moments ago. I hate the situation that I am in. I hate him for bringing me into this awkward relationship that I don't deserve.
