Torn..

I am torn between cutting you out of my son's life for good and pushing the "money matters" to court.

The fact that you never visit your son during your visiting times sure is a sign that you don't miss him, care for him, worried about him, nothing. None.

You give money, yes, but less than what we have agreed on, signed by you, in front of the barangay chairwoman. According to you, what you give me is more than enough for the child's needs and don't ever include my bills on it.

On the other hand, should I just let you enjoy your life, give what you only want for the child, not thinking of what he needs in the future? I need the money to someday enroll him in a reputable school.

And what about another fact that someday you'll have your own family? What about my son then?

I hate you through and through..

Early Dilemmas as a Single Mom of a Growing Kid

With my son's 2nd birthday coming up, I have been realizing important things that he could have had..

First, he will never grow up with his father.. or any father figure for that matter. My brother is not a father to his own child, and I no longer have a father myself.

Second, I wish he could have siblings to play and/or fight with. I really wanted a big family because our family was sort of small, and sometimes it gets lonely when everybody is busy with his/her own stuff.

I know I will encounter a lot more of these issues while my son is growing up, and I just hope we can get all through this with a smile..